Look, that’s why we have laws. It seems that is very true. Except maybe Rachel, they may be gone in April there won’t be any sufficiently passable news programs. Anyways, they have a few problems as well, I’ve nearly stopped watching MSNBC and switched to alJazeera. Oftentimes a centrist Democrat, that would look GOP lite to the far left extremists, By the way I agree with you on everything else, while I disagree with you about Hillary. Mostly she is an ideal investigative newsperson, even Rachel gets overly dramatic and seems a tad. I decided to schedule a medical workup to rule out any disease that could possibly be causing my symptoms.
Curiously, the diagnosis did not come as much of a relief.
I desperately almost hoped that I should be vindicated by the diagnosis of some physical ailment. My condition proved to be a very isolating experience, and the isolation only intensified the disease and its accompanying shame and loneliness. I knew that many people even some in the health profession regarded depression as a character flaw rather than a true illness. You should take this seriously. Know what guys, I could not talk to my peers about the pain of depression as I could if I suffered from migraine headaches or a bleeding stomach ulcer.
Diagnosis did allow me to finally receive proper treatment with medication and psychotherapy.
It was at this time that I found out about Physician Health Services in Massachusetts.
Depression should not relieve me of the guilt about having failed at my job in identical way a diagnosis of hypothyroidism should. Instead, I was diagnosed with depression. Depression will not exculpate me for my dismal performance as a resident in very similar way, for sake of example, a brain tumor would. As long as it provided me with a structured program through which I could formally document my recovery under the guidance of my PHS associate director and designated monitors at work, the PHS contract was another valuable element of my professional rehabilitation. It is for the first time during my life, Actually I was surrounded by people who understood what it was like to go through life with depression. In turn, their inspiring stories gave me hope and strength, and I began forming friendships. Now look, the contract validated my illness, and I considered the successful completion of the contract a major milestone in my recovery. My participation in the weekly meetings at PHS as well as my sessions with my counselor played a very important role in my road to recovery.
By the way, the kind, helpful, and understanding individuals at PHS gave me the chance to see myself as a person with depression rather than a worthless resident, and allowed me to trade in the sentiment of shame for a feeling of accomplishment and pride in battling the pain of depression. Though I am shy by nature, Know what guys, I was able to share my experiences with fellow physicians and find comfort and empathy instead of judgment. Organizations similar to PHS represent amongst the few avenues in our society through which they can achieve recovery and themselves promote the healing of others, with intention to the many health professionals who face illnesses that leave them impaired at work. Remember, I also got the chance to experience, in juxtaposition, society’s starkly different reactions to mental and physical disease, while cancer provided me with another very unexpected hurdle in lifetime. Far, interestingly enough, my depression brought me far worse pain and suffering than the colon cancer has, yet, unlike the latter, the former leaves no visible scars on the body for others to see.
I finally had a reason to be sad.
Similar individuals who regarded my depression somewhat skeptically reacted with shock and ensuing ‘fullhearted’ support in response to my cancer diagnosis, and I never had to explain to anyone that I was in pain.
While promoting my recovery at no cost to me, the wonderful people at PHS provided me with a bunch of help and support. It was at about this time, two years after my initial diagnosis of depression, that I was diagnosed with colon cancer. Since it had always been very important to me to do my work in a conscientious manner, it was a frustrating time.